Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Are you gonna go my way?

Althrough Ramadan I didn't have any interest in music really. Then now, I feel like I have songs popping into my head all the time. Makes one wonder.

Loyalty. What is it? How do you define it? How loyal are you? Questions we must all ask each ourselves. and also questions we wonder in our relationships with others. Our perhaps we dont? Do we ignore it, forget so that we can feel safe in our decisions? And Safe from betrayals from others?

What about loyalty with our companies? How much do they owe us and we owe them? We worked and they paid. Is that it or is there more? Personally, I do believe there is loyalty. Or at least I feel a sense of loyalty. Though you do have to becareful. You need to make sure that you don't let yourself be taken advantage. Loyalty that is not recognized and then taken advantage of is not something you should let stand.

What about with people?
If I have two friends. And friend A hurts friends B (not physically but you know). And I believe friend B is wrong. How should that effect my relationship with both? Does the degree matter? Well degree always matters. I don't know. I know for sure my relationship with friend B always becomes more cautious. And I dont trust them as much. And actually, I usually trust friend a more since they talked to me and trusted me with what is going on. I guess things balance out somehow. Though its not balance I seek.

Whenever I start something new, I have large expectations for myself. Foolish aspirations perhaps. heh, I remember when I was young highschool kid and got my first job at SilverCity. I wanted to be the best and sell this much and get employee of the month. and yada yada yada. And very very quickly, I learned its not possible. I want to change the world. I believe I can make a difference. (Side note, we have to remember that doign so is a life long process, that continues in small measures. Not always a shot deal. but a constant act). Anyhow, what I'm getting to is that.

My Auntie Trahowdy (spelling is so wrong there) told me before I left for NY. You can try to change the world. Take on the big city. But don't let the city change you. And really, I think its quite easy to become pessmistic, cynical. and uncaring. Quite easy. But in the end, I know who I am. I know what I believe. I know what I'm not. And even if I get down. (I'll get back up again, you ain't never gonna keep me down, I get knocked down but i get up again...haha). I know who I am. And in the end, we are who we choose to be.

I was born long ago
I am the chosen I'm the one
I have come to save the day
And I won't leave until I'm done
So that's why you've got to try
You got to breath and have some fun
Though I'm not paid I play this game
And I won't stop until I'm done

But what I really want to know is
Are you gonna go my way?
And I got to got to know

I don't know why we always cry
This we must leave and get undone
We must engage and rearrange
And turn this planet back to one
So tell me why we got to die
And kill each other one by one
We've got to love and rub-a-dub
We've got to dance and be in love

But what I really want to know is
Are you gonna go my way?
And I got to got to know

Are you gonna go my way?
'Cause baby I got to know
Yeah

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